Lose smile&Pain&Hatred

I already lose my smile
It had gone
I don't know where can find back
Many stupid things let me slowly losing my smile
Smile??
Just a stupid action to cover my sadness
That's nothing that deserve my smile now

And...
I should not hav too much hope on you..
The hope I have more
The more deep I get hurt..
>.<.. Cry?? If cry can give back the things I want If cry can let me more happy If cry can solve all things I will cry it crazily I will cry it loudly Whatever..

PUREST OF PAIN

Sorry did'nt mean to call you but I could'nt fight

I guess I was weak, could'nt even hide it

And so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.

Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you

And maybe someone else is standing there beside you,

But there something baby, that you need to know

That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying

I have to see you, is all that I'm asking

(Baby), give me back my fantasy

The courage that I need to live the air that I breath

(Living without you), my world's become so empty

My days are so cold and lonely

And each night I taste

The purest of pain

I wish I could tell you I feeling better everything

Then I did'nt hurt wehen you walk away

But tell you the truth I can't find my way

That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying

I have to see you, is all that I'm asking

BABY~

(Baby), give me back my fantasy

The courage that I need to live

The air that I breathe

(Living without you), my world's become so empty

The days are so cold and lonely

Each night I taste

The purest of pain

(Baby), give me back my fantasy

The courage that I need to live

The air that I breathe

(Living without you), my world's become so empty

The days are so cold..and lonely

Each night I taste

The purest of pain

Sorry did't mean to call you but i could'nt fight it

I guess I was weak, and could'nt even hide it

And so I surrender,

Just to hear your voice..

And hatred things!!!
What a stupid group..
It's you make it difficult..
And why you all don't understand what I want de??
LOLx..
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!
LEE JIAN XIAN
Brainless..
Flower heart..
Bashfulness..
Useless..
Whatever la!!
Always Chin Huan Chin Huan..
People also no like you!!
You like this de pattern if got people accept you..
I will go die..
So noise people nia!!!!
Always I want find my Chin Huan..
Pui!!!!!
Today cause this all such stupid things
Let me cry by sadness and angryness

And today..
Lolzz..
Also no go out eat with jun sen..
Don't know he go where ar!!
Tomorrow cheesy birthday neh!!!
Chili and Banana are going to give him a SUPPRISE..
Haha..
Hope tomorrow is a good day..
Don't let me getting more sad..

Thanks for Banana..
Thanks for your caring..
Really thanks..
I love you babe..